Hello, how are you I am fine thank you, and you? I am fine thankyou. I Polish Jewish boy from Australia so English first language but now I am live in Espain now for over 6 years, so please be patience with me becauase involuntary English deterioration occur in my brain region since live in espain. I like share my brain thinkings with you, of the lives in Espain, no? Okay, YOu listen me, I explain you! And dont forget smash like button and subscribe to my email channel!!
This me when I was little child boy in Communist Poland in early 90s:
Back in this time, we not get full albums of Western music in Poland, like Guns N Roses cassette Use your Illusion II, which not have all songs because not fit on cassetee and also, all movies from Hollywoods only have one man doing all voices (this not change in 2025) , Coca Pepsi Cols drink is dream to have, if you see blue jeans or fancy clothes, then everyone look on you like WOW America!!! or anything you see really that have colour, you say ‘ LOOK… AMERICA!!!!
But back in past I have problems, deep existential crisis, as now have, and will always have. But my troble same as all human people, as happen to all homo sapiens for last 300,000 years, just in different forms:
You know this rock band Gang of YOuths? This algum Go Farther in Lightness, mayebe my #1 most important bestest of last ten years:
And in Deepest Sighs and Darkest of Shadows singing Dave man say: ‘If everything is temporary then i will bear the unbearable terrible triteness of being’
I write long series on whole album in October 2017, here…
and I see today that I feel same as then, same deep emotions being excavated and revealed and brought to surface to be vulnerably exposed then mowed down and razed and you must start again.
“I’m more just stumbling around in the dark for the bulk of my days…’ this life, no?
Every period in life, goiung through different hardship, ‘as David foster Wallace say in Pale King, in chapter of someone giving advice, just say ‘What’s wrong?’ to anyone at any time, because there is ALWAYS something wrong.
But even if something wrong, you are alive and this is fucking hard one, in your life because you or someone you love is always dying and getting closer to end, but as Kenny Powders say ‘fk it’ because even in pain life can be fucking exceellent other times, and future for us all will be worse but also better and most important thing is to just try to look and feel about what is in your life now and think yes, this is fucking excellent as Kenny Powders say, because when you numb and can’t feel anything you are dead, and feeling nothing is death.
Feeling pain is feeling and feeling is being alive. and as Kenny Powders say. ‘Fuck it’ and as screaming big thick haired boy man singer of Gang of Youths say, ‘say yes to life’:
Somertimes it good to listen to what you say in past because past you know better than present you, and this how i feel now. Present me = idiot but maybe not, but past me=smart but idiot in other ways.
So as you see my friends, past you is present you, like past me in Communist Poland buying cheap bootleg 10-track version of Use Your Illusion II in communist era shitty town back then, which actually have 14 tracks and when i listen to album 15 years later i learn this album not onyl 10 songs and Estranged exists and also Locomotive and learning November Rain is actually much more than 3 mins long and have not one but two Slash guyitar solos which totally weird to Polish Communist era boy like me.
And this me today, living in Spain, same terrible triteness of being, just different specifics:
and as Gangs of Youth say, ‘If everything is temporary, I will bear the unbearable terrible triteness of being.’
Ok, guys, so what terrible triteness of being you enduring in this moement? Share in comments and don’t forget to subscribe to my Facebook wall!!!
